here I am, writing this entry on saturday night,where my radio is blasting a Hari raya song right now. I am feeling happy and also excited for the first time in my life. The excitement bubbling inside me, sang along in tune with the lively rythem of the song. and the ironic thing is, my family haven't even prepared the festive cookies and bought themselves some new year clothes. funny... but we will tackle the problems one thing at a time. all of them are threatening to overwhelming me and the rest. however, we can only focus on solving the problems one thing at a time. just what I did last friday night. I stayed there late till eight pm to set up Mr Soh's computer and since we could not get into the administrator's account, the only and the last resort is to reformat the whole system. fortunately, my boss, Mr Soh, did not work on the computer and there is little data inside it. we managed to install the microsoft office and also the internet connection. the whole incident left me feeling glad and happy for the first time. so now we had to tackle the problem of tranferring the data form Mr Soh's laptop into the new computer. and since Mr Soh's laptop will be reformatted again and all Mani's data will be transferred to his laptop. and the one that Mani's using will be deemed as obsolete. or " Beyond redemption" as Grace called it. I agree with her.
Sunday, October 24, 2004
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
finally, the day I had been waiting for arrived..
there was a time when I had a dream. A strange dream. it happened when I slept gain after eating before fasting time and it was on Sunday morning. it gripped me in a vice-like hold throughout the dream. All I can remember is or was - my sole aim is to rescue my sis no matter what the cost. As you know, Iam very close to my sis and love her with all my heart. sometimes, I missed her badly. so you can imagine the protective feeling towards her during the dream.
I dreamt that some thugs were chasing me, my sis and a friend ( who happens to be my religious classmate) and they tried their best to capture my sister. Needless to say, we also got involved with the police and were wanted too. I remember the last bit of it - we're standing around a window with the wooden blind, staring grimly at the scene below. there were hordes of police cars, and we knew that we were on the run, from the police, the thugs. we some sort devised a plan along the way, and lo and behold, we bumped into some thugs on the way out.
Got involved into a very serious fight and I yelled at my friend to take care of my sis. she went off, and I was left fighting with the bad guys. I remember the three of us sliding down an endlessly long staircase on something ( a wheelchair?) located just before our goal, the exit door. We attracted crowds and a few of them jumped out of the way. we weaved through the police cars and whizzed past the stunned policemen. they reacted a few minutes too late.
then the three of us raced towards the 3 bicycles located conveniently somewhere and we biked towards a road in Bukit Batok Area. I was at the front, and my friend lagged behind. I yelled at her and sis to catch up with me, but she went across the road and disappeared into a jungle. I biked for some more before my sis called me to follow her, I turned around, and saw the answer to our escape. my friend was in a red sports car, trying to reverse. I crossed the road carefully, acutely aware that the police can catch up anytime with us. I dropped the bicycle and ran towards the car. once the door shut closed, the feeling of tension slowly faded away. the moment it reversed and was going on the way, I felt a sense of relief.
then UI woke up.
I dreamt that some thugs were chasing me, my sis and a friend ( who happens to be my religious classmate) and they tried their best to capture my sister. Needless to say, we also got involved with the police and were wanted too. I remember the last bit of it - we're standing around a window with the wooden blind, staring grimly at the scene below. there were hordes of police cars, and we knew that we were on the run, from the police, the thugs. we some sort devised a plan along the way, and lo and behold, we bumped into some thugs on the way out.
Got involved into a very serious fight and I yelled at my friend to take care of my sis. she went off, and I was left fighting with the bad guys. I remember the three of us sliding down an endlessly long staircase on something ( a wheelchair?) located just before our goal, the exit door. We attracted crowds and a few of them jumped out of the way. we weaved through the police cars and whizzed past the stunned policemen. they reacted a few minutes too late.
then the three of us raced towards the 3 bicycles located conveniently somewhere and we biked towards a road in Bukit Batok Area. I was at the front, and my friend lagged behind. I yelled at her and sis to catch up with me, but she went across the road and disappeared into a jungle. I biked for some more before my sis called me to follow her, I turned around, and saw the answer to our escape. my friend was in a red sports car, trying to reverse. I crossed the road carefully, acutely aware that the police can catch up anytime with us. I dropped the bicycle and ran towards the car. once the door shut closed, the feeling of tension slowly faded away. the moment it reversed and was going on the way, I felt a sense of relief.
then UI woke up.
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
happy..
resting from the memories of the events that happened today..
today is the day where I went back to the ITE Clementi for my ITE cert.. it's long over due. like 3 months already? yeah.. spotted and bumped into some of my old friends where I welcomed them with open arms.. haix.. it's been a long time since I chatted with them. bumped into Halman, Razmy, aum of the Tae Kwon do friends, some of the student councillors like Molly, Tom, Hajjar, Intan.. just to mention a few.
I walked into the school with a mixture of feelings, happy, excited, wondering what's their reaction is gonna be. I was dressed simple, with a white polo tee, jeans, blue slippers. and followed with makeup, and my carefully styled hair beginning to get messy from all the frantic comb throughs with my fingers and in the end, getting it frizzy. >.<
when I walked into the foyer, the first person that I spotted from afar is Shidah. I wanted to call out to her, but she seemed to be too far away from me and she walked away. darned it.. lost the chance...
I already attained my cert when I strolled into the canteen area.. bumped into sum1 I know, but I forgot her name.. we chatted to the locker where I met Molly.. she was still the same person whom I know.. and I gatecrashed into their class later, but sad to know that David Lee wasn't around at that time... needless to say, I went off first to survey other ppl. Headed to the staff office, and browsed through the office. then I got out and went down to the second storey.. and was talking to Hajjar at that time. I spotted her figure walking towards the restroom and replied, hey, I was just behind you. and you know what? her reaction is totally classic. just the kind where I really adore the most. she paused, turned around, and literally screamed in happiness. I was laughing all the way when she headed towards me with that brilliant smile of hers. we headed towards Lab 2.. for their class. was again invited to gatecrash the class, but I decided to stay outside. Spotted Intan coming, so I asked Hajjar to cover me in cheekyness. lol. she was surprised to see me. chatted for a while, and was kinda sad a bit when she told me that bad news.. oh well.. what to do. I can only pray for Intan..
noticed Tom glancing at me, so I asked Hajjar to come over. and finally! he recognised me. was munching something and did his signature style of greeting. asked the usual things. he told me that I changed totally. Changed my hairstyle, my dressing, everything. but there is only one thing that I never change, that is my specs. loved my specs too much. went to the Atrium with Hajjar later to meet Priscilla. saw her setting up some equipment for her performance later. I say man, her voice is darned good. good enough to go for the Singapore Idol.. set off to find my good sister, Diana. as i went on, I waved to her, but she didn't recognise me. she had an inkling that the person waving to her is me, but she couldn't dare to wave back. it is only during walking distance will she get up from her seat and we both ran to each other. we hugged, and her voice reminded me of the old times where we snuck out of school and talked non stop to each other to Central. we then talked about our problems. she replied something that really made me feel sad. " sigh... how come all the good times have to come to an end?"
but I told her, " all good times will come to an end. it's part and parcel of life." she agreed. my stomach grumbled. she accompanied me to the canteen, and I surveyed the food before buying. we bumped into an old friend of mine, Razmy. we exchanged numbers after talking for a while. Diana had to go off for her class, so I ate my lunch with Caiqi, Lewis and their classmates. later, as I went to the shop, I spotted faisal and Kelvin walking together to the hall. I shouted after them, and Kelvin turned around, his face expression kinda disturbed... He kept smiling with his mouth closed. Long time since I talked to him. exchanged greetings, and but he just kept smiling. I turned to chat with Faisal instead. well, he's more responsive than Kelvin.. ;x walked around aimlessly for a while, and the clock finally struck twelve. Time for me to go home.. and get ready for the next big event. the Interview..
that, I will talk about it sometime later...
adios!!
today is the day where I went back to the ITE Clementi for my ITE cert.. it's long over due. like 3 months already? yeah.. spotted and bumped into some of my old friends where I welcomed them with open arms.. haix.. it's been a long time since I chatted with them. bumped into Halman, Razmy, aum of the Tae Kwon do friends, some of the student councillors like Molly, Tom, Hajjar, Intan.. just to mention a few.
I walked into the school with a mixture of feelings, happy, excited, wondering what's their reaction is gonna be. I was dressed simple, with a white polo tee, jeans, blue slippers. and followed with makeup, and my carefully styled hair beginning to get messy from all the frantic comb throughs with my fingers and in the end, getting it frizzy. >.<
when I walked into the foyer, the first person that I spotted from afar is Shidah. I wanted to call out to her, but she seemed to be too far away from me and she walked away. darned it.. lost the chance...
I already attained my cert when I strolled into the canteen area.. bumped into sum1 I know, but I forgot her name.. we chatted to the locker where I met Molly.. she was still the same person whom I know.. and I gatecrashed into their class later, but sad to know that David Lee wasn't around at that time... needless to say, I went off first to survey other ppl. Headed to the staff office, and browsed through the office. then I got out and went down to the second storey.. and was talking to Hajjar at that time. I spotted her figure walking towards the restroom and replied, hey, I was just behind you. and you know what? her reaction is totally classic. just the kind where I really adore the most. she paused, turned around, and literally screamed in happiness. I was laughing all the way when she headed towards me with that brilliant smile of hers. we headed towards Lab 2.. for their class. was again invited to gatecrash the class, but I decided to stay outside. Spotted Intan coming, so I asked Hajjar to cover me in cheekyness. lol. she was surprised to see me. chatted for a while, and was kinda sad a bit when she told me that bad news.. oh well.. what to do. I can only pray for Intan..
noticed Tom glancing at me, so I asked Hajjar to come over. and finally! he recognised me. was munching something and did his signature style of greeting. asked the usual things. he told me that I changed totally. Changed my hairstyle, my dressing, everything. but there is only one thing that I never change, that is my specs. loved my specs too much. went to the Atrium with Hajjar later to meet Priscilla. saw her setting up some equipment for her performance later. I say man, her voice is darned good. good enough to go for the Singapore Idol.. set off to find my good sister, Diana. as i went on, I waved to her, but she didn't recognise me. she had an inkling that the person waving to her is me, but she couldn't dare to wave back. it is only during walking distance will she get up from her seat and we both ran to each other. we hugged, and her voice reminded me of the old times where we snuck out of school and talked non stop to each other to Central. we then talked about our problems. she replied something that really made me feel sad. " sigh... how come all the good times have to come to an end?"
but I told her, " all good times will come to an end. it's part and parcel of life." she agreed. my stomach grumbled. she accompanied me to the canteen, and I surveyed the food before buying. we bumped into an old friend of mine, Razmy. we exchanged numbers after talking for a while. Diana had to go off for her class, so I ate my lunch with Caiqi, Lewis and their classmates. later, as I went to the shop, I spotted faisal and Kelvin walking together to the hall. I shouted after them, and Kelvin turned around, his face expression kinda disturbed... He kept smiling with his mouth closed. Long time since I talked to him. exchanged greetings, and but he just kept smiling. I turned to chat with Faisal instead. well, he's more responsive than Kelvin.. ;x walked around aimlessly for a while, and the clock finally struck twelve. Time for me to go home.. and get ready for the next big event. the Interview..
that, I will talk about it sometime later...
adios!!
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
tml is the interview..
what can I say? right here, right now, here I am, trying to calm the excitement, the nervousness the happiness in inside me. watching the Poison Ivy Mv (featuring the baddies Fly to the Sky) singing in mute ( my com. speakers are dead already.) and waiting for the moment where I can get my month's pay, and the thought of facing that interview is making my feelings whirl. A rollercoaster of emotions are being felt right now, and I am trying to write this post for the sake of calming myself down. I wanna pray, so that I can face the interview tml with a calm state of mind.
if you wanna know what is going on in my life, don't worry. I'm gonna tell you in a few sentences. tomorrow, 6 Oct 2004, will be the day where I took one day leave to go back to my school for my cert. (finally) and meet al my long lost beloved friends for quite a while. Sigh.. I missed them a lot. a lot of promises to meet together are made, but somehow, most of them are never made. I wonder what is their reaction. Surprised? Delighted? Jaw dropping face expression? hee.. I can't wait to see them. a vision crept through my mind right now. a situation where I innocently pop by into a classroom and make their faces shocked by my appearance and .... (feel free to fill in the blanks.)
there's another challenge I really need Allah's help to overcome this. quite recently, I have applied for the admin post in a company located in Ngee Ann Poly. there, I really need to make sure that I will dress my best and also remember all the tips that my aunt gave me. Sometime later, I need to give her a treat. I make sure that I will remember it.
what will the outcome tomorrow will bring? I do not know.. I can only leave it to Allah's hands. Only HE can make miracles happen. I have experienced it so many times. I do know myself that I have faith in him. but only HE can make them happen. also another thing... I need to remember this rule. When something doesn't work or hinders your intention, there's always a reason why there's an obstacle being placed there in the first place. maybe, sooner or later, Allah will place you in a situation explaining why. I do understand that by thinking deeply, you will know the reason. but for now, I can only pray To HIM.
tha'ts it I wanna say tonite. Getting sleepy already... good night..
if you wanna know what is going on in my life, don't worry. I'm gonna tell you in a few sentences. tomorrow, 6 Oct 2004, will be the day where I took one day leave to go back to my school for my cert. (finally) and meet al my long lost beloved friends for quite a while. Sigh.. I missed them a lot. a lot of promises to meet together are made, but somehow, most of them are never made. I wonder what is their reaction. Surprised? Delighted? Jaw dropping face expression? hee.. I can't wait to see them. a vision crept through my mind right now. a situation where I innocently pop by into a classroom and make their faces shocked by my appearance and .... (feel free to fill in the blanks.)
there's another challenge I really need Allah's help to overcome this. quite recently, I have applied for the admin post in a company located in Ngee Ann Poly. there, I really need to make sure that I will dress my best and also remember all the tips that my aunt gave me. Sometime later, I need to give her a treat. I make sure that I will remember it.
what will the outcome tomorrow will bring? I do not know.. I can only leave it to Allah's hands. Only HE can make miracles happen. I have experienced it so many times. I do know myself that I have faith in him. but only HE can make them happen. also another thing... I need to remember this rule. When something doesn't work or hinders your intention, there's always a reason why there's an obstacle being placed there in the first place. maybe, sooner or later, Allah will place you in a situation explaining why. I do understand that by thinking deeply, you will know the reason. but for now, I can only pray To HIM.
tha'ts it I wanna say tonite. Getting sleepy already... good night..
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